Would you ever go to the end of the world and back? Do anything for one person? Even share with other girls as long as you get them to yourself for one night ? I would. I care too much about someone who wouldn't look twice at me. I feel a strong connection but apparently he doesn't I would do anything to relive those 3 nights. I am still confused why he did it or what his intentions were but I don't regret anything. I just want him to be happy. I feel like he's mad at me or hates me. I really just want these feelings to go away and stop dreaming about him. I can't take it anymore. His presence makes me so happy and I automatically feel butterflies when he's gone I miss him. When he ignores me I miss what it was like before I messed things up. I just want to apologize for everything. For not being real to myself and for my emotions. I really hate this. Make it stop. I want him to be my best friend. I am in limerence I am falling into a deeper hole. I want to drink to smoke to just get things off my mind.